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Chuck Mitchell's avatar

This essay is so good. Much appreciated. And thanks also for the mention of Geoff Dyer’s book. One Christmas, as a gift for my staff at Verve along with the bonus checks, I handed out copies of But Beautiful. I got some curious looks, but I wanted them to think about the music we were selling in an alternative way. I have no idea if any of the team read it, but hey, I tried. I have a small list of books on Jazz that are outside the mainstream of writing on the subject, and the Dyer is at the top. Cheers!

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Regarding the track “All Too Soon” from this album, I wrote the following in 2020 for an end of year roundup of songs that represented the year’s experiences:

This year, on top of everything else, a close friend of mine died of cancer. It happened very quickly, with little time to process. He had been my editor for over a decade, deeply involved in my writing, a collaborator who had given me the confidence to find my own voice. He was also a gifted jazz pianist and music had always been our secret handshake as friends. As he lay in the hospital, I sent him a few songs to listen to on his ear buds. He was in and out of heavy medication and I could never be sure he listened, but I spent hours and hours one evening—as it turned out, his last—trying to think of songs that could convey the gravity of what I wanted to say to him. I tried to imagine a song that could bring comfort but also meaning, bind emotion and art into something like a goodbye and put a fine point on the profundity of life itself. I hoped against hope that a song—a song!—could somehow arrest his pain and eclipse the sorrow of death. This was a tall order — in truth, impossible, even absurd. Later I realized it was probably more for me than for him, a way to cope with the emotions of impending loss.

…..In the end, I sent him a Coleman Hawkins ballad, a Harry Nilsson song, and an Art Tatum-Ben Webster tune—but not the song I had wanted to send. Not this one. Ellington’s “All Too Soon,” I decided, was simply too on the nose—the way the title seemed to acknowledge that my friend was, in fact, about to die, which I knew was true (so did he) but could not bring myself to admit yet. It was too painful. Too soon. He was 62. It wasn’t until I saw him in person the next day that I was able to say a proper goodbye, one of the most profoundly painful experiences of my life. After he died, I played this song over and over again, to experience the emotions of the loss, but also the fragile beauty of life. It was an elegy and a prayer, a communion with my friend, a long goodbye at the edge of darkness.

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